Web Search for a Texpsychan

When performing a web and word search for the word "Texpsychan" the following link was brought up...my only desire is to find this man and capture his heart... Can anyone direct me on where to find him....? ;) I have a wife beater to match...



... Mexpsychan and Texpsychan. What the hell have I got myself into ...

More on relationships

More on relationships – This was on my homepage this morning and I was wondering “Are the Gods’ trying to tell me something?”  Do I need to be tamed just a tad?  lol…  
Well, if I am, it needs to be someone that can do it with all his priorities straight.  I know of one fellow that has those qualities in him… ;)  

How to Tame a Free Spirit

I also noticed this article and know of a few women out there that can be just that…  I’m not speaking about anyone in particular, just from talking to some male friends in the past; I know there are a few of us out there.  

How to Not Be an Obsessive Girlfriend

Last but not least… the following article was at the bottom of the link list…  probably best since the above mentioned ones are probably more important in order to have a healthy relationship…  

How to Have a Healthy Relationship

In The Eyes Of My Soul

In The Eyes Of My Soul

Author: jasminej2_DH

In the eyes of my soul,
You are a Master and I a submissive.
we are not equal.
we are opposites of the whole
complimenting one another
fullfilling each other's needs
completing the circle.
In the eyes of my soul,
You are a Master and I a submissive,
You have the instinctive need to control, possess,
defend and provide for me.
I have the instinctive need to please, trust, honour,
and obey You.
In the eyes of my soul,
You are a Master and I a submissive.
You stand in front of me to protect me.
You stand next to me to share with me.
You stand behind me to support me.
I kneel before You out of my deepest respect.
for You have proven Your worthiness to me.
In the eyes of my soul,
You are a Master and I a submissive,
You teach me, You guide me,
You give me strength.
You are my light in the darkest of night.
my submission is all that I have to offer.
You're acceptance of this sacred gift has bound my
soul for all time.
For in the eyes of my soul,
You are my Master and I Your submissive.

Top 9 Jobs Where Bacteria Thrive

It’s a wonder that I’m even a healthy woman!!!

Teachers Lead the List, Followed by Accountants and Bankers

By Miranda HittiWebMD Medical News

Reviewed By Ann Edmundson, MDon Thursday, February 16, 2006

Feb. 16, 2006 --

A new survey shows which office-based jobs host the most bacteria.
Here is the list, going from careers with the most to least germs on workspace surfaces:

Teacher
Accountant
Banker
Radio DJ
Doctor
Television producer
Consultant
Publicist
Lawyer

University of Arizona microbiologist Charles Gerba, PhD, and colleagues did the dirty work. The Clorox Company funded the study and reported the results. These findings are part of a large research project by Gerba on "Germs in the Workplace."

Average bacteria per square inch of workspace surfaces ranged from 17,800 for teachers to 900 for lawyers, according to the report, which doesn't specify which bacteria were found.

4 Spots Where Bacteria Lurk

Phones are the workplace's top spots for bacteria, according to Gerba's team. Next are desks, computer keyboards, and computer "mice."

Many office workers eat at their desks, munching on lunch or snacking as they churn through their chores. That habit may be convenient, but it can be a bacteria magnet.

"Desks are really bacteria cafeterias," Gerba says, in the news release. "They're breakfast buffets, lunch tables, and snack bars, as we spend more and more hours at the office."

Still, Gerba's team found fewer bacteria in offices than they had in past studies. "We were pleased to find a decrease in bacteria levels," Gerba says, in a news release. "Perhaps people are becoming more aware of germs in their office and doing something about it."

Results from previous research from "Germs in the Workplace" found that when disinfecting wipes are used as directed, up to 99.9% of germs are eliminated.

Dirty Business

The researchers visited workers' offices, swabbing desks, phones, and computers for bacteria. They sampled an average of 11 cubicles or offices at each location, for a total of 616 surfaces.

Workers were told not to tidy up in advance. "In fact, they were asked not to alter their regular workday routines, from eating at their desks to cleaning," the report states.

There were some differences among the offices Gerba's team toured:

Teachers' phones, keyboards, and computer "mice" had the most germs. (Myfield)
Accountants' desks had the most germs of any desks sampled.
Lawyers had the least germy desks.
Publicists had the least germy phones.
Bankers had the least germy keyboards.
TV producers had the least germy computer "mice."

"Surfaces regularly used by teachers, accountants, and bankers harbored nearly two to 20 times more bacteria per square inch when compared to other professions," the report states.

Technology Today

Technology Today – Go figure

The irony of technology today and Administration. Below is the latest standard laptop for Teachers and Staff with our school district. I am paid to repair, rebuild, image, load software, etc., etc., etc... With that being said, I will be getting the listed laptop this Thursday, but in the process I have to go to training on “HOW TO USE IT”! District Staff enter work orders for me to repair them, but I have to be trained on how to use them… How to power on, how to use the touchpad, how to log on, how to connect peripherals, etc., etc., etc…. Yea makes sense! lol… Go figure! I’m excited about it though as I will be able to take my laptop with me on my trip this week-end and hopefully be able to find some wireless set up somewhere in EP since my sister is not set up for internet…

NC6125 Notebook

AMD Turion 64 ML-34 1.8Ghz 1MB L2 cache
Microsoft Windows XP Professional SP2
1024MB 333Mhz DDR SDRAM
60GB 5400 RPM
15.0 Inch TFT SXGA+W w/1400X1050 Resolution
ATI Mobility Radeon X300
Up to 128MB of Shared Video Memory
DVD+/-RW Optical Drive
Integrated NetXtreme Ethernet Controller 10/100/100 Nic
Broadcom 802.11 a/b/g WLAN, Bluetooth
3/3/0 Warranty
Travel Bettery 8-cell high capacity. Lithium-Ion battery
TARGUS Ultra Mini Optical Mouse with Retractable Cord
TOTAL BASE Configuration $1,540.00

Living life according to our own rules

This was in my email this morning and as I started skimming through it, I noticed something… I have lived a lot of my life suppressing my actions, my wants, desires and interests due to either my parents’ “natural sense of protectiveness, ex husbands “stifling” my energy, creativity, and strengths. Those old sayings “Never ask women their age”… “Act your age” – “You need to set an example to your kids” (Thanks Sis!) Well, all I can say to that is “PLEASE!!”

I don’t feel my age, don’t act my age and don’t plan on doing so soon… but most importantly, I am very proud of me, my age and how I carry it. My actions – Life is short, we’re not getting any younger (this little piece of information was discussed last night), and my message to my kids in reference to what example I set for them… Live Life To The Fullest! Live for today! Walk through as many doors that life opens up for you! I was always told not to disclose my age or the fact that I had three wonderful children… 25, 21 and 19, I AM 44 going on 45 this year… There! I’ve said it! I’m still alive, breathing and there is no nuclear war that just occurred because I disclosed that information, I don’t see FBI breaking down my door at this moment! I’ve always heard that some of my actions are unacceptable… I don’t want to be on a recliner, crocheting doilies (although I do crochet, I’m not going to sit by and watch the world pass me by…)

Up until very recent, I am told constantly that my mind, my body, my depth and my heart is what makes me and is what is found attractive in me. I am told now that there is nothing small or insignificant of, or about me. I like that and that is what we as adults need to remember about ourselves! This is not so much about me, but about all of “US”!


Perks for Grownups
As children, we're encouraged to live according to the rules. As adults, it's worth remembering that we get to make our own.
By Daphne Rose Kingma

Sometimes it's difficult to take the actions we need to take on our own behalf. That's because when we were children our actions were often suppressed. Out of our own fears, or out of a natural sense of protectiveness, your parents may have stifled your energy, your creativity, your passion (sexual or otherwise), your initiative, your strength. Don't do that, you'll make a mess. Don't try that, you'll get hurt. Don't do that, what will the neighbors think? Don't wear that outfit, everybody will think you're weird.
In fact, you may have been told that some of your actions were unacceptable. As a consequence, instead of developing courage and originality in your behavior, your actions may have become repetitive and unoriginal. In order to gain approval, to receive the love you thought you couldn't live without, you may have learned to draw your world of actions very small. Instead of being an expansive adventurer, ever on the journey of discovering the expressions that could define you to yourself (and in time become the vehicle though which you can give yourself to the world), you limit yourself to the actions that are known to gain acceptance. So rather than wearing the chartreuse high heels and practicing singing in your bedroom, you learned to dress down and shut up. Or rather than becoming an actress, you became a secretary. Rather than taking a trip to India, you went to the mall. Rather than being a passionate lover, you lived in a passionless marriage for twenty-five years. One way or another, because of the content of your life theme, you learned to play safe, to contract, to limit your wholeness by living small, by living, "according to the rules."Given all this, it's hard to act out, and sometimes, rather than being inspired by expansiveness or a dream, the acting out that changes our lives is inspired by the constriction around us. This is true either when we do something our parents would never think of, or when our acting out takes a subdued direction because our parents made the world so unsafe and chaotic that, in reaction, we make our own worlds structured and calm. Stephanie, whose socialite mother conducted numerous affairs in Stephanie's presence and right under her father's nose, acted out by not marrying the corporate lawyer of her mother's dreams, but rather a steady, good-hearted carpenter her mother would never approve of. When his parents insisted that Hank become a minister, he became a rock musician instead. When her mother said she's better settle down and stay in her hometown, Sharon, the star of her high school drama department, took off for New York. One way or another, the atmosphere our parents create around us defines the nature of our actions. We're afraid to act, we react, or we act in a different way because of the role that action played in our relationships with them.
When I was in college, I used to ride the bus every day for an hour on my way to my job at the hospital. Day after day I'd see the same older women riding on my bus. As time went by we gradually had an opportunity to speak.
One day when we were sitting next to each other, a person sitting across from us was reading Life magazine and on the cover was a photograph of several famous mountain climbers. The woman noticed the picture and remarked that it reminded her of her son. "When he was a teenager he just loved to climb mountains," she told me. Then she went on to tell me a lot of other unusual things he'd done when he was a boy and young man. I remarked that with all those experiences, he must be having a very interesting life. When I said that, the woman paused for a moment, and her face grew still. Then she told me that her son had died in a mountain climbing accident. I told her I was so sorry. When she turned to thank me, she said, "Well, that was his way; I wasn't surprised. He died being himself." Then she told me she's always found peace with his death because he'd died doing something he loved.Despite her own loss, this mother had a great enough heart to encompass that it was in her son's nature to climb mountains. She didn't stifle him; she even had the expansiveness of spirit to recognize that even in his death he was being exactly who he was meant to be. She was that extraordinary parent who in fact supported her son's "acting out." How can you be that "parent" to yourself?

AWAKENING IV

I've had my fun these last few days, so here I am posting the last part to my repost of The Awakening... You'll have to follow it all together at one time, but again...it is worth every minute.

AWAKENING IV (last)

You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that

sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people...

...and you learn not to always take it personally.

You learn that nobody's punishing you and everything isn't always somebody's fault.

It's just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to
build bridges instead of walls.

Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you

begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.


~ Victorya Casanova ~
THE AWAKENING


My sincere and deepest love to everyone going through their own AWAKENING...

Redecorating

Redecorating…

Wonder if I could just slip this style right in…maybe with the thought that the place goes by “Gunflint Woodshop”… your thoughts?

Ok, I’m having too much fun with this one, I see the lecture and the briar patch coming! hehehe…

in fact so much fun that, I’ll disclose a bit of my humorous side of me here…

As Porta’s Cat and I were driving my son to my place on Saturday, I turned and informed my son that “I was moving in with Mr. Porta’s Cat upon the end of my lease at my place”. In unison, not just did my son reply, but Mr. Porta’s Cat did as well with an astounding “YOU ARE?!?!” I could not help but laugh my Ass off! No sooner was Mr. Porta’s Cat looking for a quick place to pull over his truck and leave me to walk home! LOL… The look on his face – “PRICELESS”!!! My son thought it was funny… but I learned quick of the plans that would come about with me working various jobs to earn my keep!

Life is about having fun… I try to live by that, can you tell? If you all don’t hear from me anytime soon… contact my niece (the “other” mexpsychan”) to track me down… lol…

Photographs

A photograph is usually looked at - seldom looked into.
~Ansel Adams

 

Relationships and Strategies

Life has been such an interesting rollercoaster these last several months... but the focal point of life these days is "strategy".

Intensifying strategies - further the relationship (ex. meeting old friend, bringing the other to meet family, becoming more affectionate, etc.)

We all have a strategy when it comes to either "playing" people, spouses, children, friends, dates, bosses, co-workers, etc, etc, etc... To get what we want, to lead them to believe that it's their idea from the get-go. Relationships seem to start off this way. It's not a bad thing... we want what we want in life and we go after it. Sometimes whatever it takes. From the minute you find someone interesting, we all strategize,

Men: they will paint the picture of a very normal, strong minded, well balanced, endearing, open minded, and understanding to the womanly ways type of man... Men: will dress (hopefully) to impress as well.

Women: we will "dress" the part to have them forget their strategy and have them at our feet, that's just to start for "us" women. We will bat our eyes, toss our head to the side and play with it. We don’t always make eye contact, we’ll play coy, innocent, just a tad vulnerable, but not enough to show us we are naïve and weak, we don’t try to come across as loud or wild ((we hold that for the second, maybe third date) or at least some of us do lol… I’m a different story, totally different mold that I was made from…let’s not go in to what our discussion was on our first date shall we? HA!!! Was it strategy though on my part... think about it!!!)

We check each other out from the minute we make eye contact. Size each other up and decide right then and there, what our strategy will be to either

A). Lure them in to our web
B). How long we want to play “innocent” and “good” (for those of us that aren’t)
C). How long before we do “give” in to the cardinal ways for those of us that are good (cough, cough, sorry a Cheetos got stuck in my throat).
D). Send them on their way and allow it to be their idea of "It's not going to work".
F). Or play hard ball and be upfront and to the point of what we want out of this date.

1. A Friend


2. A Girlfriend/Boyfriend


3. A Wife/Husband


4. A Roll in the Hay


5. A Fuck Buddy


6. A Friend with Benefits (there’s a difference between 5 and 6)


7. A Soul Mate


8. Hardcore Sex for whenever the NEED is strong


9. A Drinking Buddy


10. Someone to pick us up off the floor and lean on when life is dishing out Bullshit!

It is a set up! We are all set up!

Here of recent... a few blogs have been posted in reference to new relationships and the bringing of "unknown" and "weird" even "unwelcomed" items in to a shower, kitchen, or bedroom... lol... Let's see if my memory recalls it all well, remember, I'm aging, so some of this might be a bit sketchy...but...

Men are normally set in their ways, especially after being bachelors for about 1 to 4 years of single life!! ;) They woo you and court you to get a relationship going...and once it happens and you make that brave first step of staying the night for the first time, we as women want to do the best to present ourselves to this man that has been "blessed" (LOL…Did I say blessed? I mean WORTHY…I’m sorry, did I say worthy?) with our presence for the night and the next morning. So what does that mean? We take an overnight bag with as few essentials that will get us through the night and morning without scaring the hell out of the man as if we were moving in, sending him off running or us packing! HA! So... things are noticed on behalf of the man (we women are more discreet of the changes that need to be made)... the differences between the males and woman's home. Bathroom... soaps, shampoo, conditioner, loofahs, shaving creams, deodorants...RAZORS even. I’m working on it as we speak, trying to minimize and live simple. Meanwhile, I’m looking at making a shopping trip to Bed, Bath and Beyond here in a few days. I have the curtains already in mind, the kitchen is next… I’m getting excited now… The bedroom will be the last room to hit, I have to look for something that will go with all the Gun and Ammo that is displayed in the bedroom. I’m up for any suggestions! (LMAO)

To shed some serious light to those forlorn, hopeless romantics…here are a few sites to start with…

Relationships…

Romantic Relationships and Valentine's Day

"Love is magical! It is wonderful. It is not a state of being which we can get into and stay in. It is a dynamic, changing process.

Healthy Romantic Relationships

"You are not going to live happily-ever-after once you find your prince or princess. There is no happily-ever-after on this plane of existence. You may find your prince or princess but they will have issues to deal with. Relationships are something that needs to be worked on - not some magic wand that makes everybody happy."

An Adventure in Romance - Loving and Losing Successfully

"Is she/he my Twin Soul? Or an Angel sent by my Twin Soul to prepare me for our reunion. Will it happen in this lifetime? Or the next?

LIFE IS GOOD!

An Aunt and Niece Relationship

So much can be said about my niece! I've said it on many occasions and I'll say it again! I love this woman! Not just because she is my niece (that does play a big factor) we are like sisters, best friends...she's always there with a smile! I've told her before she is a "Wonderful Woman"! She is fighting Von Hipple Lindau Disease with such determination that it will not take control of her life!

Porta's Cat and I got to spend some fun time with her and her husband and needless to say, PC is still hanging around after being harrassed by my niece! What a better way to be welcomed in to the family!!!??? HUH?

Somehow I always end up with a spanking...family, and all... I just can't seem to stay out of trouble, even at my age..! That's a DAMN good thing too!!! Means I'm living life to the fullest just like my niece!
YOU GO GIRL!!!

AWAKENING III

AWAKENING III
As I mentioned, this is lengthy, but very well worth it...

You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world
and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn that the only cross to bear is
the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

You learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are
and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely.

You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish
between guilt and responsiblity and the importance of setting boundaries and...
learning to say NO. (Tuff enough...)

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things
over and ignoring your needs.

You learn that your body really is your temple.
You begin to care for it and treat it with respect.
You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water,
and take more time to exercise.

You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear and uncertainty...
so you take more time to rest. And just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul.
So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve
and that much of life is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for
something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction,
discipline and perserverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone,
and that's OKAY to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself...You learn to step right into and
through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to
give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.

yes... more to come.... one last part.

Quick drop in to voice a random thought

Quick drop in to voice a thought – Random thought

This lady has been in another world now for about two months…  It’s been all good, I have to say, it was scary at first.  The thought of allowing myself to “feel” something that just sent me spiraling emotionally… being rejected and made to feel inadequate as a woman, as a person as a human being.  That all has made a 90 degree turn-around and I’m glad I succumbed to the feelings.  I try to live by a motto – Live life To The Fullest With No Regrets, and I finally had to start living it on a different level… – and I’m glad I did.  I have experienced and am experiencing Ecstasy!  There’s a special man to thank for that!  There are good men out there ladies, take it and run with it!  I did and I’m thankful on many levels but mostly to the special man in my life right now…  

I’m still on that RUSH baby!!  Thank you!  

~Passion ~

I will be extremely busy today, 30 computers to set up and image. Soooo....

I'm reposting something from 360 to put my place in this world today... seems to fit exactly the feelings and the mood of what's been going on these past few days. It's been a good week for me, and I'm getting ready to have a wonderful week-end! I hope you all do too!

~PASSION~

Let men tremble to win the hand of woman, unless they win along with it the utmost passion of her heart! Else it may be their miserable fortune, when some mightier touch than their own may have awakened all her sensibilities, to be reproached even for the calm content, the marble image of happiness, which they will have imposed upon her as the warm reality.

~Nathaniel Hawthorne,

The Scarlet Letter

FAMILY...

I'm going home in one week...to see my neice get married (it will be a complete family reunion with the brothers and sisters). It will be nice, I've always made fun of my family...in a teasing sort of way. Dad is not with us, but he sees us from above and knows that we are always thinking of eachother and he knows in his heart that we'll all be with him one day.

I moved to Houston in 1983 and have made Houston my home. I wouldn't have it any other way! God had a plan for me and God "Bless(ed) This Broken Road" of mine. I'm happy where I am in my life, but I will never forget my roots!

There is so much that can be said for a family, yours, mine... none are the same.

"Dysfunctional" is what I call us, but all in all, this is what I have to say:

My family is my family,and I am so glad that they are mine. Love will keep us together through our lives. We will fight. We will argue. We will disagree. But the one thing I will always be aware of is we will always want the best for us each.

No matter what I don't have. No matter what I don't get. I have a gift that is no cost to anyone who enters my heart.Thank you, my family, for your special charm.

2004

My neice that is getting married...Congratulations dear neice! Wishing you many happy years in your marriage!

My dad - to whom I'll be paying my respects to at Fort Bliss Cemetary upon arriving to El Paso.

Indian Warrior Wake for Fallen Marine

I got this in an email yesterday from my brother and thought I’d share it as well… I mentioned before that I have a tremendous respect for those that have served for our country and are serving our country to this day. I will always try and post what comes across my way, and with my brothers emails, that might happen more often than expected. I have a deep sense of love and admiration for my brother and his group of bikers as they stand for something very important to many of us...


Indian Warrior Wake for Fallen Marine

Click here: RockyMountainNews.com

Please visit our websites -
http://www.sdharleyriders.com/
http://ridingwiththeangels.bravehost.com/
http://lostdogtags.bravehost.com/index.html

Would you like to adopt a POW/MIA ?
http://www.ojc.org/

The truth is easy to remember....It's what Happened !!

Cheney shot triggers heart attack

Could it get any worse for Cheney?

Chicago Suntimes

Related Stories

AWAKENING Repost from an old archive of mine

AWAKENING – Repost from 360

This is a favorite of mine and a reminder for myself as to who I am and what I am working towards in my new life…

Upon browsing the net... I came across this poem that seems to scream quite a bit of what my life has been in the last 9 months... I felt compelled to just share it with those around me as I know for a fact that I'm not alone in this world and that we all have our own stories...
These thoughts are lengthy, but very well worth the reading. I assure you! At the end of it all, I will direct you to the website, but for now, I'll relay the message in spurts... so much of Victorya Casanova's words have already been experienced by me, so much that I sat here and nodded and smiled. Yet, many of her thoughts and words are still to be experienced and learned and my arms are wide open to my full AWAKENING! I think I'm more than half way there...
An AWAKENING is not a short synopsis of sorts. It is something very real and well worth the fight, the struggle, the tears and even pain!
Because at the end, you'll find yourself in a peaceful place...

AWAKENING
A time comes in your life when you finally get it...when,
in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead
in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...
ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on.

Then like a child quieting down after a tantrum you blink
back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your AWAKENING.

You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something
to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically
appear over the next horizon.

You realize that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale
endings and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin
with you...and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone
will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are...
and that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself...and in
the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

more to come....

Sincere Mexpsychan Advice on dating

With my recent adventures in the dating world... I am here to try and help those endearing single, newly single, women out there... I'm still learning, so if you have some worldly advice...don't hesitate to share with us less fortunate (such as me).

This is very sincere and true to heart! I speak from experience women! Please heed the following advice.

If you find yourself very attracted to a man, a man that just throws your world off balance in the best way possible, sweeps you off your feet, sees you for who you are true to heart... and you feel that there is a great possibility in taking the relationship further...

Please make sure you do NOT follow too close to his Rear End... You can and will come across such a devastating experience! I know I did... Luckily enough (I think) I was not left high and dry after breaking down in tears, embarrassment or what us ladies tend to experience in the worst possible life experiences. You will tend to get your ASS in a wreck!

"DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME"!

I'm taking a collection and even starting up a PayPal account for those feeling sorry for the poor Mexpsychan Princess!

Happy Valentines Day Babe...

Magic Touches

Magic in your voice is what I long to hear

I’ll close my eyes and dream you’ll whisper in my ear

I listen to each word compounded in a thought

The love you have to give forever I have sought

As you lie close to me your love is what I feel

With each and every breath this fantasy is real

I’ll listen carefully your mesmerizing tone

Assures me that with you I’ll never be alone

And as you hold me close I’ll melt within your arms

I listen to your words absorbing all your charms

No words could justify these feelings that are true

But you can plainly see I need to be with you

Abundancy of love is what I had to give

To you and you alone until I cease to live

Happy Valentines Day to Every Soul out there... ;)

Pillow Fights

You have got to love a good pillow fight! Especially if the people involved are in good humor about it and keep the good humor even after being “pelted” quite a few times and it turns out to be one sided! Nothing better than a good sensual pillow fight… lol… did I say sensual? Here is a description of a pillow fight, and keep in mind that there were no “young” children around at the time! Anyone up for another one? You gotta love me!!!

A pillow fight is a common game mostly played by young children in which they attack each other with pillows. Many times pillow fights occur during children's sleepovers. Since pillows are soft, injury rarely occurs. The heft of a pillow can still knock a young person off balance, especially on a soft surface such as a bed, which is a common venue. In earlier eras pillows would often break, shedding feathers throughout a room. Modern pillows tend to be stronger and filled with a solid block of artificial filling, so this no longer occurs.

The 1978 film Animal House, starring John Belushi, features a pillow fight in one scene.

Retrieved from "http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pillow_fight"

Lord hold our troops in your loving hands

I grew up with my father and all my brothers in my family serving our country. I had hoped to follow the honor soon after High School, got as far as signing up and right before I went in for my physical, I learned that I was pregnant with my oldest... God had other plans for me.
I have always held a HIGH regard for all who have served and serve our country to this day, all branches of service. I grew up in El Paso, TX and was exposed to service men/women all my life...I hold such respect for all men and women who put their lives in front of their own to protect us and defend our freedom... With that being said, I leave this prayer that made its way to me today in an email! My love to my father and brothers and all who serve and have served and lost their lives doing so....

"Lord, hold our troops in your loving hands. Protect them as they protect us. Bless them and their families for the selfless acts they perform for us in our time of need. I ask this in the name of Jesus, our Lord and Savior. Amen."

When you read this, please stop for a moment and say a prayer for our troops around the world. Of all the gifts you could give a US Soldier, Sailor, Airman, or Marine deployed in harm's way, prayer is the very best!!!

Photo taken by David turmoil ~ Operation Desert Storm

A Sunday Walk...

Turns a Three Day Week-end in to Blissful memories...

I enjoyed my Sunday Walk...as I've never been able to enjoy the peacefullness of a walk through a park, amongst nature and just enjoy life for exactly what it is...

all around me and right next to me....

You just can't go wrong when you have someone very special to walk hand in hand with at the park on such a gorgeous day?

We look forward to the time when the Power of Love will replace the Love of Power. Then will our world know the blessings of peace.

~William Ewart Gladstone

A Day at The Gun Range

WHAT A RUSH! As you can see, I had a great day at the range...(or so I am told)...lol... but from my point of view and thoughts on the day.... What a freakin' HIGH!

Entire Evening Sky

If I could reach up and hold

a star for every time you've made

me smile, the entire evening sky

would be in the palm of my hand.

Training, Meetings and "Individual and Individual"

An excerpt from The Warrior Within. I was breezing through the book this morning and this was the page I opened up to, somehow it was speaking to me today... I hope you all have a great day, Me...I'll be in a meeting all day, training first part of the day and meeting the second half...

Because he believes in himself,

he doesn't try to convince others.

Because he is content with himself,

he doesn't need others' approval.

Because he accepts himself.

the whole world accepts him.

Believe In True Love

I received this in an email today and just felt the urge to share... As I do believe in True Love...

Manifesting True Love
If you don't believe love is possible for you, it will never happen. But if you do believe...
By Daphne Rose Kingma

If you’ve been sitting around in the singles' department, watching the handsome guy at the pool, if you've been overwhelmed by a career that hasn't left time for intimacy, if all your friends are married and you feel like the only person in the world who hasn’t found, "the one," then you may believe that there won't ever be a true love for you.

If that's true, then you need to start believing that love does indeed await you. Just as nobody gets to Paris without believing that Paris exists, nobody falls in love without believing that a wonderful love is possible for them. That's because conceptualization creates reality. In the story of almost every successful tycoon, we read that there was a belief that against all odds he or she would succeed some day. It's no different with you: what becomes manifest in your life arrives because consciously and unconsciously, you believe it can happen—whether it's a better job, a new car, or a true love.

The precondition of love's ever arriving is that you believe that somewhere out there is a real live person for you to love. If you believe it, it'll be true; if you don't, it will never happen. In fact, the person who could be the love of your life could step right up and look you in the eye, and you could say, "Excuse me, I've got an appointment," and head off in the opposite direction.

Believing that there's a true love for you may seem like a very small thing, but for a lot of people there's a great big hovering doubt that this wonderful thing called love could actually happen to them. Maybe you've already had twenty-four hour lousy relationships, maybe your fiancé died in a car crash, maybe you've always believed you aren't pretty enough, smart enough, or successful enough, or you're so shy that you can't even imagine having the kind of conversation that could get you into a relationship in the first place.

Remember Cinderella? She lay in rags on her pile of cinders and dusted up after her nasty stepmother and stepsisters. The furthest thing from her mind was that she, the raggedy cindersweeper, could ever fall in love.

Yet deep inside, Cinderella had faith, because when the Fairy Godmother showed up, she was open to the possibility that something good could happen to her; she didn't run away.

Instead, she put her faith in the Fairy Godmother, she accepted that the pumpkin turned into a coach, and she stepped into the little glass slippers with absolute confidence. She didn't say, "My goodness, how do you expect me to walk on these, they're going to splinter the minute I put my feet inside them?" No, she was open to love. Deep inside, she already said, "I believe in love; I believe that miracles can happen.

"If you don't believe in Fairy Godmothers, you'll certainly never see one. And if you don't believe in love, it will never show up for you either. So take a risk, find the faith, open your heart, and believe that the love of your life awaits you.

A Wonderful Woman

I'm reposting one that I have on 360. I chose this because this poem describes exactly how I try to live my life. Women have a high expectation of themselves, atleast I know I do and I know of several close friends that do as well... I strive to be this woman and hope that I can continue to strive to be just that. I'm not perfect, but I definitely want to be that Wonderful Woman as described by Pam Fraser. This goes out to all the women out there that know exactly where I'm coming from on this post.

A wonderful woman is proud.

She respects herself and others.

She is aware of who she is.

She neither seeks definition from the person she is within,

nor does she expect the people she knows to read her mind.

She is quite capable of articulating her needs.

A wonderful woman is hopeful.

She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true.

She knows love; therefore she gives all her love.

She recognizes that her love has great value and must be shared

if her love is taken for granted, it will soon disappear.

A wonderful woman has a dash of inspiration and a dabble of endurance.

She knows that she will at times have to inspire others.

A wonderful woman knows her past, and understands her present

and faces toward the future.

A wonderful woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past.

Instead, she understands that her life experiences

are just lessons meant to bring her closer to self-knowledge

and unconditional love….

knowledge and unconditional love.......

Pam Fraser

Gun Toting Cat Influences and Street Smarts

Ok… the store clerk gave me a weird look as I checked out with a few foofoo necessities for the apartment, my Easter Decorating/Craft Magazine and my Gun Porn magazines. Although she didn’t question it, she did give me a “questionable” look. Aside from the gun porn magazines, I have even found myself purchasing a “wife beater” shirt and “boy shorts” (all of which are “Haynes” Her Way) to match as I would hate to have Mr. Porta’s Cat staring at the brush fire for too long…I can think of better things he could be staring at, hence the girlie “wife beater” and “boy shorts”… Do you see a strategy being implemented here? I do…

This blog has never been directed towards the gun enthusiast, I started this blog with the question in mind from the beginning of how I would direct it and it has mostly fallen in the line of day to day life, relationships, self existence, family, friends and such. My life is now including guns…great huh? Although I won’t be posting much on guns, there might be a few postings here and there of my new experiences as they arise. With that being said…

For those gun enthusiasts… As I wait for all of my paperwork to be received and processed to carry a concealed handgun, I figured why not get myself informed and enlightened with the ins and outs of guns and the gun world…(hence the gun porn). I’m learning. I ran across this article in one of the magazines and thought I should add to my most honorable teachers’ advice on street smarts…

I’ve ran across a few incidents where I’ve been forced to be aware of my surroundings and with the thought of carrying a concealed weapon, I can only educate myself more and more on the counter-measures against muggers, rapists and thieves...

The article (Predators and Their Prey – Proven counter-measures against muggers!) lists the following:

• What To Look For


• Predators & Prey


• How A Victim Looks


• Change Your Routine


• Have Safe-House Sanctuaries


• Common Sense Defense


• Counter-Mugger Tactics

On What To Look For it states that our own senses – especially that vital “sixth sense” – is the best weapon in the streets today. We should watch for things and people that look out of place. Be aware of people who get too close to you, who actually “get in your face”. They may bump into you, say things to see if you are listening, move up to you in a crowd and run their hands over your pockets while looking for the telltale bulge of a wallet or coin purse. This shows that they have no respect for your personal space and are testing your hearing and awareness.

They may ask for the time, or directions (as such in my case recently). They may even ask to use the phone or bathroom in your home or apartment. However, what they’re really doing is testing your ability to fight off that intrusion. If you agree to or comply with their actions or requests, they know you will be an easy mark. If a total stranger invades your privacy without warning and for no apparent reason, beware, because the next step can be much more drastic.

As I mentioned, I am becoming more aware of my surroundings and with “all” who come close to my personal space these days and these skills should and need to improve for when the day comes that I join those of you who carry. Being a single woman now, leaves me to think of number one, me…especially when I don’t have my guardian angel (Porta’s Cat) with me. I won’t be looking to be a Ms. Chuck Norris and I’d like to add that, I may be a small woman that could be thrown across a room very easily, but I can guarantee that I will do what it takes to take care of myself if the need arises. I’m not trying to come across as some “Bad Ass Mexican” woman but… if the actions call for some sort of counter-measure, it will be brought on with all due respect. I have someone very dear to me (PC) that has the patience to teach and enlighten me when it comes to my new world.

well, off to do a bit of work…

Predators & Prey

“Awareness of your surroundings becomes even more vital as we approach old age.” I guess I’m getting old then… although I REFUSE to get old, I know I will and I will learn in the process to be more aware no matter what! Is it really old age that opens up our eyes to our surroundings and the corruptive and harmful ways of others? Or is it the true life threatening scenes we see on the news and witness around us. I don’t think age has a whole lot to do with it. Its common sense to our well being, I think. My thoughts and my opinion and we know what those are like, opinions that is, a dime a dozen.

Difficult economic times and the large amount of narcotics available today also lend themselves to this primitive interaction. There are three types of “lions” to contend with out on the street.

The first one being The Opportunist, basically a coward who will come in and strike only if the odds are heavily weighted in his favor and the right opportunity presents itself. This type is most likely to seek out another with whom they can pump up their courage prior to carrying out an attack.

The Stalker, the type of urban “lion” who enjoys the hunt but could be dissuaded if confronted by a sufficient show of force. For most of them, the thrill is in the chase, they play with their intended victim, convincing themselves that they are more clever than their intended target.

The True Predator, a proven hunter who’s developed a keen sense for the hunt and the kill because of the sense of power and the thrill. True Predators among us do it for the sheer pleasure it give them. True Predators will not let an opportunity pass them by. To do so would diminish their reputation as hunters in the eyes of their fellows. And a True Predator is merciless.

I have personally known of a few predators and stalkers in my days, not all killers, but true predators that get a kick out of having control over someone. Anyone remember the Richard Ramirez case in Los Angeles? He himself was something else! He fits the True Predator and the Stalker description… I grew up with the guy; Richard Ramirez is one year younger than me, hung out at my house with my brothers all through grade school up to high school before he moved away. He stood out, but no-one would ever imagine he would turn out to be a killer. Blows my mind away knowing I was going to his home to retrieve my brother(s) to come home for dinner and such.

This is why people carry! Because of men/women like this! Now when people ask me “Why would you want to carry a gun?” I can respond with this little tidbit… And "Can you possibly live with yourself knowing you killed or injured someone?" I can say very confidently “YES”, Keeping in mind the kind of anger some people carry within, with no thought or concern of who they are hurting or injuring and the lives they are affecting.

Once a person is helpless at his feet, theTrue Predator succumbs to a murderous rage which is quite beyond the capacity of a real lion. The human predator will drag his victim further into the apartment, tie him/her up to reassure themselves that he's in control, and then begin a barbaric game of cat and mouse, aimed at extracting the pin number to a bank card machine or the where-abouts of any hidden valuables.

Anyone unfortunate enough to find themselves in this situation cannot afford to compromise with these people. The only thing you can do is keep your wits about you, try to remember a peculiar feature of your attacker - a tattoo or distinctive scar that will help police track them down and arrest them later. Take their anger away from them if you can and attempt to disarm them with an air of calm. These people feed on fear; it excites them. (Is that even possible, in such a case as Ramirez'? To take away their anger? Somehow I don't think so, given the opportunity, Ramirez should have been shot. My opinion, yet again.)

Ultimately, the key here is to survive the experience, doing whatever ti takes to stay alive. That's the critical thing. You have to live through the horror of the assault, no matter how brutal. But the ultimate goal of the potential victim is not to be selected as someone's target of choice in the first place.