Happy Birthday To Myself...

So here I am, looking at another year closer to the big 50!! Ok, ok... so I'm three years away from it, but still, none-the-less... It's around the corner! We all know how the days and months and years go by... FAST! Tomorrow is my bday... yes... another year gone by and another year ahead... how old, it's a number people... a number that I don't act like, or feel like. The saying is true! You're only as old as you feel! I DON'T FEEL 47!!! I especially DON'T ACT 47!!! :)

40+ Years ago...

(heh... look at those innocent eyes! Now how can anyone resist that precious innocense?)

So, I am figuring that I'm definitely NOT getting younger!! That only leaves me to think of where I am headed with my life, how I live it, or more like, how I CHOOSE to live it. Well... I choose NOT to live sitting in front of the tv, or in front of my computer, or just going day by day as if this is ALL there is to life. I choose to Live Life to the Fullest! I choose not to live my life walking on egg shells! I choose to live life, loving my children unconditionally! I choose to live life praising God for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me. For all the broken roads that have led me to where I am today. I choose to smile when I don't feel it inside!

There is more to it all! There's more to life than just the day in and day out routine, wake up go to work, come home, do the daily chores around the house, watch a bit of tv or surf the net, go to bed and start all over again. Nah.... There's more to it and I choose to live different.

I no longer wish to live my week-ends going to the clubs, parting, drinking, and all that comes with the scene any more. It is still unbelievable, that I was living that way exactly three years ago. 2005 was the year of my awakening.... No More! I wanted real control of my life.

I'm not one to judge anyone that lives their lives that way, I was there once, I have no room to judge. It's just not for me anymore. I want more out of life... I want to know that I make a difference in someones life.

My last post, shows the most recent pictures of me... I've been through quite alot in my years, and I love where I'm going now. I still struggle, but who doesn't? I'm not perfect, but... then again, Who Is? I just want to be a better woman, a good mother, a good citizen when it comes time for me to meet the Man above. I want to be able to be a good example for my children, I know I haven't always been, but I'm determined to change that. I'm determined to be there for them, every single time they need me. Without any worry or concern of anyone else's opinions of how I love my children.

I don't blog much these days... but as I mentioned in my last blog, the time isn't there. I'm not always doing things, I take time to enjoy a quiet moment, sitting outside with Useless, Wally and Miss Bear (the cats and the dog). Enjoying the gorgeous scenery out here in Zimbabwee. Watch a movie, make all attempts to finish painting the dining room (darn... that's taking more time than it should... lol). Planning a garden outside. There's much to do in what time I have left in my life, I don't know how much that may be, only God knows... But I won't sit back and watch it stroll by right in front of my eyes. In fact, we went to the gun range today... take a look:

http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=6ae_1208099074
(Video)

I love my new Smith & Wesson Chief's Special!!!

Thank you PC

We had a wonderful evening tonight, dinner at a new restaurant;
Onion Creek Coffee House, Bar & Lounge. Afterwards, we went down to the Museum District and drove around the area, walked out to watch a children's Peter Pan Play and walked around the museum grounds. Then for some coffee at Diedrichs on Montrose, then driving around West University. Tomorrow we are going Kayaking(I'll get some pictures posted)... I love it!

I mentioned before how I am going to the gym now, something that I never was disciplined enough to do. I eat healthier now, ok, so I have my downfall days, but I start all over the next meal. The gym is the big accomplishment... I had posted my workout that was laid out for me, that's changed again. I can now say, very proudly, that I am most definitely on a BIG GIRLS workout!

I hope that my children, ALL three, can learn from my life and their fathers, and from those around them and live life to the fullest! I pray that they CHOOSE to make a difference, a Positive difference in this world, especially theirs!

I look forward to another year, God willing...